Continued from "Healing from divorce" # 1

Then a thought struck me go to the local library and do some research on alcoholic families etc. So off I went... Boy, they had hundreds of books, but one stood out in particular. It was about adult children of alcoholics.

I opened the first page with excitement, as I knew I was on the right track. It was like a Vietnam vet meeting a Vietnam vet. The first words that stood out to me were “You are normal “this is your reality how you see things this was a normal life for you… I read on and on...

Finlay something I could relate to. I was an abused mental child of an alcoholic, heck that explained much of why I was so messed up in my emotions.

As I read more I began to realize I had never really had a stable child hood and that my parents , messed up as they were, loved me as they understood the love they received from their parents. They were hurting people just like me.

I began to pray that God would reveal to me the areas in my life that needed to be healed so that I could begin to lead a healthy Life, free from the Junk of the past. For weeks previous when I would spend time with God he would impress on me to leave, separate from my wife. However, I said No Lord Christians do not divorce.

However, the more I read the book the more I realized why people who are abused never leave; it is because they think they deserve it. That is why battered wives, girlfriends keep going back to the same person, because many times they think it is their fault and so they keep repeating the cycle of self-abuse.

Truth was I was in an abusive situation and now I really knew it... so I put It back on God for his advice/ leading.. Help :0)

Funny thing is at that time I was truly starting to enjoy life as I had a job I loved good friends and to top it all people sought me out. I had a great relationship with my boys and we spent a lot of time together. I think what was really going on was that she was losing control of me, as I became a more confident person.

All this time I would still tell people about Jesus, pray for them and so forth…not building a case here just stating the facts of my life at the time.

About 3 days later my wife told me it was time for me to leave and when I was healthy, I could come back. Wow. So I prayed God if this is your will, you find me a place to live... The house we lived in was on a lease purchase and that same week the owner came by to say he was sorry but he had to sell the house a sap and could we cancel the year lease.

Within a week god found a house for my Wife, no deposit etc. and I was at work one morning when an old friend came in and asked me how I was doing so I told him. I did not tell I needed a place to live. Straight away, he said Ok you come live with me.

I had not seen Ken for Six months and while I was praying the previous evening, the Holy Spirit showed me I would be living with Ken. So imagine my surprise the next day when he showed up at my work, he never came by. Oh, He is a Christian…to be continued. Doing this in short columns so it is easier to read!!!